excellence of character or quality as commanding esteem:women of worth.
usefulness or importance, as to the world, to a person, or for a purpose:Your worth to the world is inestimable.
value, as in money.
a quantity of something of a specified value:ten cents’ worth of candy. (source dictionary.com)
Part of reaching financial independence is knowing your worth. It’s not only important to know your net worth but also your self worth.
I’m writing this on a Sunday, but this past Friday, I had trouble believing my self worth. I let doubt and anxiety take over and my mouth let out something stupid I said in my head…
It was Friday afternoon, about 3:00 as we were winding down. My boss was joking around with my coworker concerning the conference call we were just on. (I say we loosely as my coworker and I share an office and we are the “invoicing team” of just us two, so I was on the call by default, although not participating). But to the point…
I don’t remember what they were joking about but I know I was aloof and ready to start my weekend. I then hear a sharp sound from my boss, “Chad, can I see you in my office for a minute.”
“Oh shit, here we go, I’ve been screwing around, on my phone too much. I’m in trouble. Let’s get this over with.”
I walk in and see my performance review sitting on his desk. (We had previously talked about my performance previously, as I had mentioned my anxiety in another meeting as well). I jokingly said something about already having had our performance review meeting and all, but trying to hide my insecurity.
I forget the exact words, but he got the point. Raises. “Oh here we go I thought.”
I’m beating around the bush because I don’t want to get to exact numbers and details out of respect for my employer. The point I wanted to make was that I’m generally too hard on myself and don’t recognize my worth when I need to. I will say that I was in a slight shock when I found out my raise. I knew I was in shock because, like I stated earlier, my dumbass decided it would be a good idea to let my mouth say what my brain was thinking. “I don’t think I’m worth that much.”
Wow Chad, wow. Damn that was a low blow. Why would you say something that stupid? Luckily my boss had the perfect response along the lines of, we think you are, prove us right.
Know your worth. And don’t be too hard on yourself.